hello miami

Miami.
here I am for Spring Break,spending time with my family.
I rode in a cab for the first time.
took public transportation for the first time.
the sun is out.
people everywhere.
I'm burnt.
I still love it.

changing days

things are changing.i have my license.no Facebook.exercising daily.spending a lotta time with Sam and getting to know a guy better and better.this is good.things are changing.

unfortunately unsuccessful

never gonna happen,Nikki.

          dreamer.

top dogs

sorry about the crappy morph,haha.

she's my best friend.we've been through so much together ever since the seventh grade.now look at us,   TOP DOGS.

†

z

don't stop.

I wanna go..
EVERYWHERE.leave,experience things by myself,see how things work other than Western New York,that's pretty much all I've seen.school is holding me back,I'm not saying I'm gonna drop out or stop caring,but,it really really is.I'm so motivated to go and not stop,go help someone,a mother,a child,a father,someone who needs it.I want to experience a different culture,get to know too many people and see what's REALLY going on in the world.

call me a dreamer. I remember hearing so so many people tell me this when I was little:
"if you put your mind to it,you can do it."
we'll see,I guess.

no motivation.

If there is such a thing as "Junioritis" I definitely have it because this year has already drained me and it has only been ten weeks.I know I should be writing the two essays I owe,I know I should be working on that LTA that is due this week,I know I have plenty of worksheets to do.I know I am not motivated enough to do it all. This is just how I work,I know I have a lot to do but when it is all thrown at me at once,I collapse, I don't do what I need to be doing,I get easily frustrated and bewildered by all this work and that's just how I handle it.It's not good,I know it's not,I'm admitting that.I don't feel like I should be so so excited to leave high school,but I am.I just don't work well like this.listening to a person drone on and on,with a powerpoint doesn't help me understand what's going on because all I'm worried about is being able to copy down all the notes before the next slide comes on.

this is not good..

I'm Lost.